a home of one's own

i don't know when exactly i made this decision to buy a house. sometime in the month of may - 2005 when the apartment management raised my rent by abt a 100 dollars. but there had to be more to it than just the money. i think i felt a need to grow into a different phase of life and in the absence of that happening with the company of others, i decided i had waited long enough. what if i were to die some sudden sunshiny day? this would only be one more addition to the long list of things/feelings i do not know. and unlike most of the other items on that list - i could at least try and make this one happen on my own.
so i decided - to try.